Iwent to the bank today to cash my LAST unemployment check. I actually broke down in tears because it hit me that I really won'thave a steady income coming in anymore.

It's times like this that cause for a moment of reflection. Did I do the right thing by giving up my hot-shot television job to pursue a new "calling"? I believed in my heart I was stepping out on faith---being led by God to serve a greater mission. Was it His voice I really heard or my own selfish desires. Why don't I just go out and find another job?

Yes, I have an absolutely wonderful husband who keeps telling me not to worry. He's a great provider---no doubt about it---but I feel so bad sometimes knowing I have to rely solely on him to take care of me and my daughter. He is my inspiration. He is the wind beneath my wings---telling me to fly higher and higher---because he believes in me and what I'm trying to do.

You know when I wrote "Whatever! A Baby Boomer's Journey Into Middle Age" it was supposed to serve as a guide for middle age women like myself to help them appreciate and celebrate growing older. Today I feel like it is my testimony of God's goodness, grace and mercy in my life.

"But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in YOU." (Psalm 39:7)

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Peace & Blessings,

babyboomerbev