This is the first time I write a blog. I have always been fascinated by the people that can commit to writing one everyday and although I am sure I am not one of them I will try to keep it up as best I can because I can see the therapeutic benefits and sounds like fun.

I am a 43 year old mom, I live in Miami with two of my three adorable sons, the oldest is 23 and on his own. I moved here about 7 years ago from my native country of Puerto Rico. I am at the moment separated which I have been for many years and have been in a relationship for almost a year. My current boyfriend(silly word at 40 but what can I do?) he is in his 40s too and a wonderful man and we will discuss him further into our blogging relationship. Currently I am unemployed but very busy fixing my house in the aftermath of various years of depression and not caring now I do care.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for my youngest, he starts high school. That has me thinking of him in a very nostalgic way, his first day of school ever and the way he looked when I left him behind. I think I will cry tomorrow as much as that day. I truly miss my babies. This mothering thing is very curious thing never ever imagining just how many different feelings are involved and how complicated it is. I am happy I had them young, I am happy I waited 4 years in between having them to enjoy all of them equally and I really enjoy their adulthood I just miss everyday of their past as well. Wow I think I need grandkids.

Well I think that for today I have written enough, I can see why this is beneficial, t is a torrent of thoughts that you can share with people that never asked if they could.