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As many of you know I lost my brother-in-law this summer to a car accident.  I’ve been strong about it.  I cried for about 2 minutes the morning after it happened then pulled myself together because my boyfriend was pulling up to the house & he needed my support more than my tears.  I thought to myself “I’ll cry later when I have time.”  It’s been 8 months.  I’ve held his widow as she cried.  I’ve held his mother as she cried.  His father.  His brother.  Today the paper wrote an article about the case being postponed till next month.  (The man who killed him is a prominent man in a neighboring county who is depised by the community.  So many people are following the court case hoping jusice prevails.)  The online article had the police report.  I had seen the police report at his parents file but did not read it.  Today I downloaded it & read it for the first time.  So objective & matter of fact.  Clearly stating who was at fault.  Now I can’t seem to get myself together.  Everytime someone talks to me I want to break down & cry.  I’m at work, on a project that needs my full attention.  I don’t have time for the tears today but for some reason I can’t stop.  I can’t let my staff see me like this.  I have multiple meetings this afternoon.  I just can’t pull myself together.



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      3sa wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • Take a break, go outside and walk and let it out, you are lucky enough to be in Florida!  

      Let it out, stop holding it in!



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      UK Girl wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • Honey tears are healing and bottling up isn’t ..

      Work will wait and who cares about work colleagues let it out and I know they will understand - delayed grief is normal ......

      Go out for a walk round and clear your head but yes you do need to grieve - I’m so sorry this has happened.



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      Vikki Hall wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • You need to let it out. Go for a walk and take a few minutes for yourself and your sadness. You are entitled to it. I suspect you will need to be string for others in the near future so letting yourself react is a good thing. Go ahead and cry......



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      (華娃娃) ChinaDoll wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • If you have time for lunch, If there is a Catholic church nearby, stop in.  It is very quiet usually and that atmosphere is perfect for you to cry out.  I did that many times.  

      Why Catholic? Church and sanctuary is open most of the time during business hours.  The candle, the quietness, the pews, ... that’s all and I do not mean to knock another churches down.



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      Vikki Hall wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • You‘re right CD most other churches are not open thru out the day....



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      Bluerose wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • Thank you ladies.  You all are so wonderful.  I took a drive down by the bay.  Forced myself to eat.  Now I’m back, more composed.  I’ll probably leave work after my afternoon meetings.  I just want to be home when my daughter gets home from school.  Something about that just feels good.  Breathe in ... breathe out ...



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      3sa wrote Mar 10, 2009
    • You‘re Right China and I never thought of that....sweet I will remember that the next time I need to cry.



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