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Since January 1st of this year I have started Weight Watchers several times over, tried green tea extract diet pills, started Atkins twice, Slimfast, fasting/starving.
When will I ever learn??
The only way I have been successful at losing weight is by starving. I’ve done it over and over again, regaining weight and then some...starving it off again. The cycle continues.
The summer before last (2009)I lost about 40 pounds. I ate very little and exercised a lot. I felt great, but little did I know, my then 15-year-old was picking up my bad habit. By Christmas she had lost over 30 pounds. After the holidays, she got increasingly thinner and we started her in therapy. By that time, she was nearly 100 pounds (she is 5‘8“) and very emaciated. Somehow, whether therapy or her own sheer will, she regained weight and is now healthy, although she still seems to have disordered eating.
Over the course of her illness, I regained most of the weight I had lost. I feel awful, but I can’t seem to follow even the most sensible diet plan. I’m a mess.
I’ve decided that I just can’t diet anymore. I hate the way this consumes my life. I hate what it does to my body. I hate that I am such a horrible example to my daughters.
I give up!