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Today was Mother’s Day. I can’t say it was the best one...but it surely wasn’t the worst. I’ve had those. But for some reason...this year....my mother was on my mind ALOT. Is it because it might be her last? I don’t know...could be. And in all reality...I wish it was. Why would I say such a thing?
You see, my mother has alzheimers. She has had it for 11 years. The past 11 years have been eventful and hard. It’s very hard to see someone who use to call you everyday (whether you liked it or not) wither away to nothing. Not only does she have to live with this horrible disease but she is completely blind in one eye (detached retina) and very cloudy in the other. She also has diabetes. So..imagine having alzheimers and being blind at the same time.
But my mother still is very pleasant to be around. She still has a bit of a sense of humor, but each time I see her I have to introduce myself to her. I am her daughter....the baby....and she doesn’t know me. Do you know how hard it is to talk to your mother and she has no clue of who you are?
I love my mother but I love her enough to wish her to be free of this horrible disease. Do I wish she would go to sleep tonight and not wake up? You bet I do. Then she would be free of this disease and could then go to heaven and be with my father and her parents that she speaks of so often.
I was unable to visit with my mother today due to being sick and not knowing what I have. But she wouldn’t know if I came or much less that it’s Mother’s Day. My intentions are not to put a damper on anyone’s Mother’s Day. But this is all I have of my Mother today....and these are my thoughts.
So if your mother is still living...and she still calls you ....sometimes with annoying questions or tells you that story more than once...just deal with it. One day...you’ll long for those phone calls...or that story one more time...
Happy Mother’s Day Betty....I love you.
MC I can feel your pain. And if I was in your shoes I would feel the same way. I could not stand watching my mom be in pain and I did wish that she would be free of her misery.
I miss my mom very much- good and bad!
You are a testament to the kind of mother you have and she should be very proud of you.
mary i am so sorry.
ty for sharing this. think i call my mom!!
xoxo
MC, any of us who have had a mother go through a debilitating illness have felt the exact same way. Watching them wither away is devastating on us and it robs them of quality of life and dignity. I hope you were able to remember some good times today.
I think you expressed yourself eloquently. I could feel your love and concern for your mother. Your hope and wishes. Yes, she’s not the person she once was and you were unable to see her today. Perhaps maybe one day this week. Maybe, maybe not. You are a loving and caring person who only wants the best for someone she loves. Thank you
Mary you always share what is in your heart. I pray that your mom continues on with the remainder of her life feeling the love that her family has for her. I know it causes heartache when there is no recognition in her eyes. I admire and respect your strength and devotion to her. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
Thanks ya’ll...didn’t mean to be a damper...but I’ve had sort of a meltdown today about my mother. It happens from time to time..and today was one of them. I think if I go back to YoVille I’ll be better...
But thank you for your kind words...not looking for sympathy...just getting it out of me.
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