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Hi Girls!

i know it has been AGES since i have posted a  blog, and been  here on a regular basis..life has been going on, and i somehow get stuck in one spot, and fight to get out..

so many of you may know that my momita has been very sick..she has parkinsons, pulminary fibrosis, and sarcoid.. i moved here to PA 3 years ago and her health wasn’t good, but wasn’t like it is now..OH! she also lost her sight in her left eye due to the neglegance of a Dr.

Fast forward to June 2009.. my sister calls and was telling me what the Dr. said at momitas Dr.’s appointment..there is nothing more they can do for her, and the Dr. does not know how much time she has left ( making a long story short )

I got off the phone from my sister, and just cried! i was angry, because the Lord had restored our relationship, only to take her away? YES i was angry because i have an x husband who is a deadbeat dad, ( im still working on my anger at him ) and yet God was taking away mom momita?  

I have let go of all that anger.. it only lasted a short while, and then i had a tug on my heart to be with my momita, to help her and my stepdad.. but, i have a job.. i just can not leave...and im like 480 miles away

My oldest will be giving birth to my first grandbaby in October, and id like to be with her! but i have a job and just can not leave....and im like 480 miles away...

My job was amaizing! i LOVED it! i did my job very well, and just couldn’t bring myself to ever leave..my hours were not too bad, however i wanted to get better hours to be home with my children at night...

Now... when God tells me to do something, i need to do it THEN~ not on my own time, or my own terms! LOL when i don’t do His will, or the things that He wants me to do, He removes EVERYTHING that is in my way, good OR bad! lol  

i lost my job on 30 July 09, and i was devistated! HOWEVER, i had so much peace running through me, it was almost like a reliefe! its really hard to describe it, but what i realized was this:

God restored and healed the relationship between my momita and i, to prepair me for this very moment! i can go be with my momita with a heart that is healed, full of love and compassion, and a true desire to help my parents out! PLUS i can be there for the birth of my first grandbaby!!

i am going to close this chapter, and write the rest later so its not so long! LOL

i love you all!
Linni

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