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I love to blog about my life even if it isn’t the most interesting life going on at the moment. I am a divorced woman who is plus size and not exactly happy with my appearance. I am losing weight for myself not for someone else or their opinion of me! I really need to feel better about me and this is my way of doing so! I am also going back to school to earn my social science degree.
Now about my boring life! LOL! Well, I haven’t dated in about 3 yrs and don’t see any options in the wings either... it seems that men have stopped finding me attractive! I would love to know why, but just too afraid to find out! You have been there don’t tell me you haven’t because we all have our down times! I think it has a lot to do with my feelings about me, since my dad passed 2 yrs ago it has been really hard for me to feel good about me even though I know that I am doing what I should be, going on with life! Anyone who has ever lost someone that meant the world to them knows what I am talking about... The guilty feeling for going on living while they are gone forever! Yep that is there and hard to get over, but eventually we all have to say “It isn’t my fault they are gone and I have to live my life even though they aren’t here! Even though it hurts like hell that they aren’t here! I have to go on!” That is what I am trying to do! Since losing dad my weight had really gone up and my blood pressure went up which is something it had never done before! But I have lost 30 lbs since October 20th and hopefully will continue doing so! I am not trying to lose it too quickly because I want it to be a healthy loss not like I did when I was a kid and that is another blog (maybe!)
I am mostly happy with my life, I have a great job caring for an older couple who have the kind of relationship most of us only dream of! They have known each other since they were 7!!!!!!!!!!! They were married young and have been married for well over 50 yrs! I believe it is 57 yrs! Wow in this day and age that is a miracle! I would love to have that kind of love! To be so happy to see the person next to me each morning and know that I was loved so much! How great would that be?
Currently there are no dating options here.... I used to go out and sing Karaoke, but have since stopped that... I mean when you go out wouldn’t it be nice if at least one guy hit on you? Well, I am the woman who gets ignored! Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t do the one night stand thing, but it would do the ego a bit of good to be hit on once in a while!
I want kids pretty bad, but at 41 almost 42 that doesn’t look to be happening either.... oh well, enough for now... have a great Sunday!
Artricia

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      Mz. Queen wrote Dec 13, 2009
    • I can relate to a lot of what you shared especially the part about wanting to lose weight. I have never lost anyone close to me and at 48 I’ve been married twice and have 3 adult children.  

      I get compliments from men but not one is ready to commit to me, but I’m living and enjoying life to the fullest while I wait for him to find mehappy



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      Karyn Olson wrote Dec 13, 2009
    • Congratulations on the weight loss...what a great place to start...I can totally relate to your feelings about low-self esteem and how it can bring us down...I too have gone through a lot these past couple of years and went into a severe depression...and all I did was lock myself up and eat and eat and eat...the BIG weight gain has made how I look and feel about about myself at an all point low...but I know that mentally and spiritually I am gaining strength and through time and work my physical part will come again...here’s to many more loss pounds and many more positive gains in 2010!



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      Artricia wrote Dec 13, 2009
    • Thanks for the support and understanding... Life is not easy being over 40 and single... so many people say that this is the time of my life! Where they get that I have no idea... Who wants to go into their golden years without someone to rock on the porch with? LOL
      Here is to a much Happier, Healthier, and more loving new year!!!!
      CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!estatic



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