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I was diagnosed on July 9th 2008 so I’m still somewhat in shock. But, as they say life does go on.  Work, bills and life does not wait for you to get yourself together.  More importantly, I’m not the kind of person who feels sorry for oneself.  I do have my pity parties every now and then but I bounce back pretty quickly.  

I was diagnosed with Oncocytic Carcinoma which I’m told is somewhat rare.  The survival rate according to the medical books is 58% which is excellent from where I sit.

I’m in my 4th week of radiation Therapy and my taste buds have gone to sleep indefinitely. The nausea comes and goes depending upon what time it is so I stuff myself silly in between gags.  

I love salty foods even though I know that it is not good for me.  So, to get around this dilemma I eat pickles with everything.  I even drink pickle juice instead of soda.  Believe it or not I actually taste the pickles more than anything else right now. Which is funny because now everyone is asking me if I’m pregnant:)  Of course I politely tell them no, and proceed to tell them I have Cancer.  Their mouths drop and I can see that this is not something you just say in passing.  

But, how does one say they have Cancer.  Can someone answer this question for me??  

My husband, wants me to keep it hush hush.  As if keeping it to myself somehow makes it less real. We have been together for 14 years and here I go and get sick on him.  Usually we stick together like glue and can jump all hurdles life puts in our path.  But Cancer is something he cannot make better with butterfly kisses.  He is terrified of losing me.  Little does he know....so am I.  So, I put on a strong face for him, my family, friends and my coworkers.  They mean well but I can see that when they ask me how I feel...they really don’t want me to tell them the truth.  

With everyone’s permission I would like to post pics of my journey as I have started keeping a pictorial and notebook to chronicle my journey.  I am hoping for the best.... but must have a plan B.  I hope someone gains strength from my fight but more importantly I want more folks to join in the fight to eradicate Cancer from the human race.

Countdown to the last day of treatment which is Wednesday, October 8, 2008



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 10, 2008
    • Today I started losing my hair. I was kind of prepared for this.....no I take that back.  No one is prepared to lose their hair.  Not sure I have the strength to keep typing.  I think I’ll call it a night. Please pray for me.  I have about 6 more weeks to go and I’m starting to get scared.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 11, 2008
    • Thank you jesus‘girl

      I’ll try to stop giving the cancer power over my thoughts. Let me start with little steps first.  I need to stop trying to be strong for everyone else and tell myself that it’s ok to say I don’t feel well.  If I make it in to work tomorrow that is where I will start.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 11, 2008
    • Today I went out and brought some wigs.  I am a little on the colorful side as I like big earrings and necklaces.  But, for work I tone it down somewhat.  I will have to post some pics as soon as my hubby the official family photo bug comes home.



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      Sandy Ochoa-West wrote Sep 11, 2008
    • Warrior, I would be honored to share your journey with you.  Men are uncomfortable with things they can’t fix. They feel like if they ignore it or “keep quiet” it will somehow go away. As women we want to share how we feel and girl this is the place to do that. my home email is [Link Removed] if you need to email any specific prayer requests. (I might have already given it to you) Put warrior princess in the subject line so I know it’s you. I am praying for healing and peace for you.


      Sassy, Your links have been removed, please consider upgrading to premium membership.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Thanks.  I did not realize how powerful keeping a journal can be.  Just knowing you ladies care makes me feel so much better.  I have been debating whether or not I should post pics of my hospital stay and scar as I do not wish to offend.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • I did stay home from work today since I’m chained to my bathroom.  Ugh!! I know TMI (too much information)



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      Sandy Ochoa-West wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • You can post or write anything here. I was in the medical field for 10 years, you can’t shock me!!! Whatever makes you feel better is ok by me



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Well,  I ended up with 2 dark brown wigs.  I tried on the red one but felt it was too over the top for my manager role at work.  I’m known as the nice, fun manager but my dress code is professional.  A-lined skirts with a splash of color on my lips or eyes.  Except dress down Friday.  Then I put some oh-la-la in it.  Also on weekends the real me comes out.  See my crazy get-up’s in my photos.



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      Sandy Ochoa-West wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Yes, girlfriends I am as goofy as they come!!!! And I aint ashamed to say it!!!!! And yes, I am tan, with blonde hair, I am totally a fer sure beach babe!!!



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      Sandy Ochoa-West wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • In fact one of my favorite songs is from the Spongebob Movie called “I’m a Goofy Goober”



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Sorry, I took some pain meds and dozed off at the computer.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • But, I’m about to upload the pics of my first day out of surgery.  Don’t laugh as I look horrible.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • jesus‘girl you are to funny.  I enjoy your comments more than you know.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Here is the afternoon of my surgery.  I just woke up after a 5 hour surgery.  My hubby the photo bug was at it again. I didn’t even realize he was taking a photo.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Here is how I look on 7/22/08.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Here I am 3 weeks after surgery.  The Medicine they had me taking was making me blow-up.  Unfortunately, now I don’t eat because I have no appetite.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • Here is the life saving machine that gives me my radiation treatments.  Check out my ‘Silence of the Lambs’ mask on my face.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • My first day back to work!  Wow!! I felt so good then.  Still had my taste buds so I was all smiles.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • My beautiful hair on the side I was getting my radiation just fell out overnight.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • My new hair cut I just got today.  Does it look funny.  My husband said it reminded him of his military buzz cut.  Ugh!



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 12, 2008
    • OK - hubby wants to take me downtown to show off my new hair style.  He says I look fine so we will see.  I’m heading out for some night time ice cream.  We used to do this all the time but stopped when I got sick. The only flavor I can smell and taste is Chocolate Chip Mint.  

      I have been trying to drink Ensure or Boost to keep my energy up.  I think God is smiling on me tonight because I feel almost ok.  

      Thanks for the prayers everyone.  They are working today.

      I have a church function tomorrow so I’ll post the wig pics then.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 18, 2008
    • Hi,

      Not sure what happened.  I posted the pics but I guess they were too graphic.  I’ll steer clear of posting any more pics.  Hope everyone is feeling great tonight.  I’m hanging in there.  Tired but will keep on trucking.



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      Ladybug wrote Sep 18, 2008
    • did you try putting them on your profile page?



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      Almostfive0 wrote Sep 21, 2008
    • Hey Warrior... and you are a warrior. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Never apologize for saying how you really feel.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 21, 2008
    • Ladybug you are brilliant.  I was able to save some pics in an album.  See my son was wrong...I am not techno challenged.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Sep 25, 2008
    • UGH! On Monday my job asked me politely to take some time off.  I am not able to maintain my manager work load.  I know my co-workers thought I was crazy coming back to work after my initial diagnosis in July.  Of course now I finally get it and know that radiation therapy and work don't mix.  But I felt like I’d lose my hold on my humanity if I sat home on disability.  My work is the one thing that makes me feel like myself.  Instead of spending my day thinking about this cancer eating my face away I can concentrate on the work at hand.  

      I guess when I dropped more lbs that did not help.  So I've gone from 140 to about 118.  I’ve can't swallow now because of the sores in my mouth and pain therefore I can't eat.  Oh, let's not forget my sleeping taste buds.

      My dear hubby and mother-in-law have been trying to shove food down my mouth for the past 10 days but I keep giving it to the tie-d-bowl man in my bathroom.  To make matters worse my doctor called tonight and put the fear of God in me because my white blood count is extremely low.  I’m not allowed to go out into public places or come into contact with someone ill.

      I've said it before and I'll say it again...I can't wait until this is over.  My last radiation treatment is October 8th.  Please pray for me ladies that I don't have to under go Chemo.  

      Well gotta go.  My mother-in-law is waving a can of strawberry boost in my face.  I guess it's time to feed the toilet again.

      Ta ta.



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      Leeann wrote Sep 25, 2008
    • I am really sorry that you are going through this . please know that I am thinking of you. The sun going to come out for you. Keep your chin up girl.



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      Almostfive0 wrote Sep 25, 2008
    • Hey girl
      Good to see you up and about.
      Hang in there, you know you’ve got a lot of people sending all kinds of positivity your way. You’ll make it through this time in your life and will have learned so much more about yourself in the process.
      Yummy, strawberry boost.. I’m jealous! ;-I
      smooches!



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      Mksactown wrote Sep 25, 2008
    • Hey Warriorprincess,
      Girl..you say and show whatever you want on this site. That’s what we are here for!!!  

      I’ve been affected by cancer myself. My mother and two of her sisters have all had breast cancer. My mom is cancer free, caught it real early. Both of my aunts had their breasts removed. One aunt eventually died of a heart attack. The other aunt is just dealing with it day by day. So, yeah, I make sure I get my mammo’s EVERY year.  

      It’s weird...I sometimes feel like it’s not a matter of “if” I get it, but “when” will I get it. I guess just because I’m at a high risk, that I don’t want to be surprised if I do get it. So I’m just kind of preparing myself if I do.  

      Anyway...yes we ALL need to do our part to find a cure!!

      Warrior....remember this saying..“I have cancer. It DOESN‘T have me”

      God bless you and your family, Warrior



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      Coachmombabe wrote Sep 26, 2008
    • wow, Cheryl, you are amazing! I love your boldness and courage, your transparency. Thank you for sharing this journey with us, as if we’ve all been sisters our whole lives. It’s an honor to join in praying your through this season. You are beautiful!



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Oct 2, 2008
    • I am back after a long nap.  It is amazing how tired I have become lately.  Usually I’m a night person but now I sleep at the drop of a dime.  When I’m at the doctor’s office and I’m getting my radiation treatments I even fall asleep on the table.  My tech’s think I have this amazing ability to go into the zone at a moment’s notice.  Ha, I wish it were that spiritual.  I’m just gosh darn tired.  Nevertheless, I am looking forward to a month off from work.  

      I had my check-up today and I’m down to 117lbs.  Boy, was that close.  I remember my doc threatening to put me on an IV drip if I go below 115.  Ladies, its time for drastic measures.  I’m trying hard to eat but everything tastes so yucky!! My hubby who looks for a sliver lining in everything made me try on my working pants.  I used to have a donkey butt but I think it’s leaving me because I no longer look sexy in my pants.  Boo Hoo! First my hair and then my butt.  What else will I lose?   Even more bad news is that I may not get my taste buds back ever!!!!  My doctor informed me that this is always a possibility because of where I was having my radiation (my mouth and jaw)

      Can you imagine a life without taste.  I sure cannot.  I am lifting up all of your prayers because I have many friends lined up and each of them will take me to my favorite eating spots the month of November.  This incidentally coincides with my return to work.  That is if my MRI comes back Cancer free end of October.  I will set-up my follow-up appointment with my Oncologist next Thursday so I will keep everyone posted.  I have already claimed that I will be cancer free so we should begin the partying now.



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      Almostfive0 wrote Oct 2, 2008
    • Hey the warrior,
      I was getting ready to go to bed when I saw you on.
      Keep putting the right thoughts out in the universe girl no matter what,... and know that you have a whole lot of other positive vibes mingled with yours.
      I so admire your strength. You are a true inspiration.
      Much love
      Smooches!



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      Coachmombabe wrote Oct 3, 2008
    • Thank you, Lord for being our healing God. Thank your for this woman’s faith in you to heal her. Please touch her body and rid it of this cancer. Give her the strength and energy she needs for each day. may she rest well and find her peace and comfort in you. We all look forward to learning of the amazing ways you are caring for her. In the precious name of Jesus. Amen.



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      Cheryl Sharpton wrote Oct 4, 2008
    • Thank you almostfiveo and coachmom.  I lift your prayers up to God and claim them in his Holy Name.  

      I’m about to go out and look at some homes for my Mom.  When she flew down last week she took one look at me and said “That's it I’m moving down South“.  My poor hubby is in a panic.  Don’t get me wrong my Mom is amazing but you know how it is.  You never grow up to your Mom.  I’m what 45 or is it 46.  Darn, I can never remember my true age unless I do the math on my fingers.  Anyway she has been claiming she wants to leave NY for good but I don’t think that will ever happen.  She is a true type ‘A’ personality and loves the action and speed of the city.  She would go nuts living down here.  I still have moments when I get itchy and have to hit the night air. In the past I would go skating around my neighborhood at about 11pm till about 1pm. Yes, I know that sounds crazy but you have got to try rollerblading sometime.  It’s like riding in a sports car with the top down.  It feels so good!!  

      When I lived in Brooklyn by the bridge I used to finish dinner get the kids and hubby off to bed and strap on my skates and meet some friends over in Manhattan for some fun and laughs at South Street Seaport.  I would skate over the Brooklyn Bridge.  Wow!  Those were the days.  I loved skating so much I used to skate the whole city of Manhattan on the weekends with my hubby and son in tow.  We would ride the train to 125th street and get off and it's all down hill to the ferry that takes you to Staten Island.  I had no idea how long it took and thinking back on this now I think it was probably a dumb thing to do.  But, it brought us closer together as a family and we were all in such great shape.  My doctor once told me I had the heart rate of a 16 year old and I was 30 at the time.

      Well, my Mom is trying to force feed me something that resembles eggs and grits so I had better go.  Ta ta....until tonight.

      Much Love warriorprincess



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