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**I love writing poems...I have had 4 published...You know those contests you see on line...I wish I could just set down and write them on a whim ...but I have to be in a certain place in my head to write one. My poems are a reflection of myself and events in my life...I had a rough childhood... The way I feel or some emotion I am dealing with...My son says they are a bit dark...Hope you like them...This one I wrote the other day..I am the one I wrote about...my darker side..I was in to the whole Goth... thing a couple of years ago..My ears were pierced 9x each ear...My tongue pierced, bellybutton pierced, lip pierced and nose...I wore Mostly black and only wore black nail polish..My hair was a very deep burgundy ... I have about 17 tattoos..Actually I am having my whole back done in a dark fairy forest...  

                     Have You Forgotten Me!!!

Have you forgotten Me? Here in depths of your soul, where you have tried to hide from me, the darkness inside. Your hair is bright and the color of summer wheat...no more the deep brooding burgundy. Dark sullen shades that were my eyes are now colored with a natural hue and lined with brilliant blues. The once thin and elegant frame is now filled out and thick. The music that was once my heart beat has almost faded to a memory...Your animal drive and wild passion that kept your life substance young...has expired and left you feeling frail and drained. The once driven optimistic attitude...derived from a sarcastic biting wit that you have honed to a fine line... has all but been reduced to a weak pulse of regret. Where have You gone to? Do you really think by repressing your natural, birth given desires, that you will be anything more than a mere raiment of your former self...a facsimile of You...?You can hide behind your wall of obedience, and compromise if you like...but I am still here inside you, The one you have so desperately tried to dismiss...A non conformist trying to become a conformer...You may as well be trying to put on a size 5 shoe on your size 7 foot...It doesn't fit and is painful. Ultimately You will have to revert back to type...or continue pretending to like this person you have become...Your laughter and smile have become almost nonexistent...You will have to address the longing in your heart and soul one day...You have never been able to live the pre styled social cookie cutter life style that society has determined that we should all follow...You will have to acknowledge Me....I will always be there inside you just under your skin...waiting for you to shed this sham of a personality one day...I have all the time that you have to wait..And I will...You are Me and I am You...at least admit it...!!!



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      Almostfive0 wrote Oct 8, 2008
    • I can really relate to your poem...very nice. I am the same way about writing poetry. It’s hard for me to just sit down and write something off the top of my head. I have to be going through something or really be feeling passionate about something or someone at the time.
      And by the way the woman speaking in your writing is definitely not the woman pictured on your profile...LOL. Like I said I understand I have my own version of her.



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      Rena Bennefield wrote Oct 8, 2008
    • **Thanks for the comments...Yeah I have always had this darker side..Actually I have many sides..LOL.. I have others I have written, I will be posting them also....I would love to read some of yours also...Oh if I can find a pic of me when I was in that mood I will post it.heheheheh



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      Almostfive0 wrote Oct 8, 2008
    • lol! I know I have so many people living under this roof sometimes I wished I could charge rent.
      Like I said I have to sit down on one of “those” days and write something.
      Peace.



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      Rena Bennefield wrote Oct 10, 2008
    • Here is a pic of me looking goth and my daughter Brittany!



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      Almostfive0 wrote Oct 10, 2008
    • Wow!...you look totally different...I mean,... the profile picture isn’t as big as this one so maybe I cant see your face as clear...lol only similarities I see is your chin and your arm...lol Great picture and your daughter is very pretty.
      peace.



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      Rena Bennefield wrote Oct 11, 2008
    • ** Heheheh AlmostfiveO ..Yeah I love to remake myself..it is a lot of fun..I love to try new and different life styles..It has made my life fuller and very colorful..That was taken 1 1/2 years ago...and thanks for compliment on my daughter.. I went through a bunch of pics of me and laid them out ..I laughed at some of my reinvents of myself..Maybe I will post them later..I love change..I love to move also..But I am very happy here with my sweetie Jerry..My rambling days are over... =)



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      Rena Bennefield wrote Oct 11, 2008
    • ****Well..Empower ..Let me think..I felt bold and very confidant..Very vibrant...I felt sassy and sexy..I was nobodies door mat and I was ready to step anytime it presented its self to me..I never back down anyway..But this was different.. I was a total headbanger also..Here is a pick of me at the bar..LOL..I used to headbang with Justin my son..People at the bar who didn't know us asked if we were dating..LOL..It was a blast..We a;so had people from the different bands that came in asked if they could photograph us for their CD covers..We were like "Hell Yeah"...I have pics of my son in one of my Photo Albums on here...



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      Rena Bennefield wrote Oct 11, 2008
    • The girl in the pic is my friend..We were at her B-Day party..



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