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I have firbromyalgia.  I’ve had it for years.  I was lucky enough to have about a 2 year remission, but now it’s like the universe is charging me for those pain-free years by making it worse than it has ever been.

I am in pain.  Constant, unrelenting, major pain.  There are no medications that I’ve found that take away the pain.  The doc tries different things every few months, but it’s a crap shoot.  

I am in such a bad place, mentally, personally, with my career and all the other areas.  I feel like I’m totally lost and I just don’t know what to do anymore.

What happens if these continues and I can’t work?  Who will support my family then?  DH is retired and doesn’t seem willing to get a job.  I’m ready to walk away from my job of 10 years, as I strongly believe that it is killing me.  I believe that my job has become toxic to me.  

The easy answer would be...get a new job, right?  It sounds so easy and seems so simple.  However, any other employer would not pay me what I make now.  We‘re already several running in the red financially each month.  If my income takes another hit, were hosed.

However, there’s a part of me that thinks that wouldn’t be so bad.  I know I could get “a job” somewhere.  It ould just be about a 50% reduction in pay.  We would lose our house and every other possession we have.  But maybe I wouldn’t be in so much pain. I wonder...

Things just are not working for me right now.  Yesterday my husband told me that my pain is psychological.  Excuse me?  If I wasn’t hurting so badly, I would have smacked him!  Why can’t people understand?  Just because I don’t look sick doesn’t meant that I’m healthy.  I’ve lost 40 pounds since Christmas.  Does anyone besides me think that may be a problem?  Is it the stress or the fibro or what?


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      (華娃娃) ChinaDoll wrote Mar 15, 2009
    • Everything runs and connects to each other.  Stress certainly is not helpful and fibro can contribute to the stress or vice verse.  I am sorry you are in such pain.  It must be hard to type or do anything.

      I suggest to take one day at a time.  Do not worry about quitting.  Do not worry about new job.  Do not worry if it will go better or worse.  Take the “Now” approach.  I know it is easier to say then done.  Try to focus for this minute.  Calm your spirit and hopefully the circle will break a little at least.

      There is a group here for support.  I will find and link that for you.

      Take care.  We understand.

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      Bluerose wrote Mar 15, 2009
    • Can't answer your question Hon.  Only you can.  But we're here for ya.  hug  Be sure to take care of yourself first.  Hang in there.

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      Vikki Hall wrote Mar 16, 2009
    • I don’t know much about fibro but I do know that when you are stressed it makes everything worse. Everything takes longer to heal to re energize and so on. I can’t tell you what to do but from my own experience my stress level decreased when I made a lifestyle change.
      Best wishes that it all works out and of course we are here to listen and help you thru.

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      Lovemykids2 wrote Mar 25, 2009
    • I have fibro and I understand the pain. I take a nutritional supplement that has changed my life. You can watch a video on the power of Reliv at
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