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Do you ever feel sometimes that your life is just scattered like hash browns?  Do you feel like every aspect of your life is here and there?  I certainly do.
This morning I feel like I’m scattered all over the place with no real sense of direction. I have a lot on my plate right now. Feeling pretty overwhelmed at times but then I try very hard to bring myself back to reality and say “trust in God...let Him drive this trip...and sit back“.
It’s very hard to let it go...but what other choice do I have?  I have a sick husband who hopefully this time will get well.  He’s not worked since April 25 and has had (4) surgeries since that date.  I certainly have gratitude because he has survived but at the same time I am anxious and worried that he won’t be able to go back to work.  Our income will change and life as we know it will change.  

My oldest son was just let go from his job this past Thursday.  It was a shocker so of course I’m worried about him.  Then my youngest son just started to work for South Carolina Electric & Gas.  A great job and one that he should be able to retire from.  Great benefits.  He also has his own landscaping & lawn care business and it has really taken off this past year.  Life is good for him.  So I’m worried in one respect and happy in another.  It is all so tiring.    

We have been very lucky most of our adult lives with always having a job and always surviving the daily grind of this thing we call “life“.  Of course we have had our share of problems and continue to do so, but I know for a fact that we would have never survived some of the stuff we have been through if we had not had God in our lives.  

Now that we are closer to retirement than NOT life has thrown in some “onions” into the mix.  Onions can be good but sometimes “onions” can be bad.  Some days I like the onions in my hasbrowns and other days I don’t.
I really hate this feeling of such disarray.  I hate my mind being plagued with thousands of thoughts and worries.  Worry is such an evil.  

So today I am trying very very hard to stay focused with my businesses and not let the negative of the world bring me down.  I know I can overcome all of this with hard work and God by my side.

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      Vikki Hall wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Mary you will overcome this I have no doubt! But for today it’s ok to have the onions thrown in..... just go with it today heart



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      Cathie Beck wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Mary, our dear dear friend, you have expressed worries many of us face for our own life. I
      hope all of us can be supportive of each other while we figure out our onions. Together a positive and hopeful stance will get us through this.  

      Hugs,
      Cathie



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      UK Girl wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • oh Mary it is a worry but hey worry never solves the problem and you have two things which lots of folk don;t have  

      1- huge amount of faith so either you or call on your prayer warrior friends to help you through this and you’ll get through the blind bit and into the sunlight.
      2- faith yes going back to the faith use that faith you have in God on yourself and trust me the path will clear.

      oh and get elder son to learn how to work the camcorder to upload to You tube .......heart



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      Mary Clark wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Thanks Vicki...but what am I uploading to YouTube??  LOL

      Thank you all for your words of encourgement and just plain listening while I have my “pity party” today.  I really hate being like this but I’m the “fixer” of the family and I’m not doing such a hot job of “fixing” everything.  Maybe one day I will learn that it’s not my job to “fix” everything that goes wrong in my life or my family’s life.
      If I would just look at all of this as a huge challenge..and one to conquer...I will be fine.  Just have to get my mind straight TODAY!



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      UK Girl wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • see my email .........

      Mary your boys including Philip are big enough and ugly enough to cope so stop fixing and worrying and start living and then the good things will multiply and the bad things will disappear heartheartheartheartheartheartheart



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      Marya1961 wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Mary, I can totally see where you are coming from and you mentioned being the family member that “fixes“, boy, can I relate.  Our son has had a horrible year and his job fell through, and there were times I could scream, but I have my health to think about and if we women take on too much, we won’t be any use to the rest of the family.

      It’s o.k., you are just having one of those days, been there too!  Thank God we have him in our lives.

      heartheartheart



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      Cathie Beck wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • And may you it it straight to handle today, tomorrow, next week, Mary. It’s all that we can do.  

      Hugs,
      Cathie



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      Mary Clark wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Vicki...you are right! Worry is such a sin...and in my eyes...I’m allowing that ugly devil to conquer ME!

      I’m heading to lunch and going to sort all of this stuff out.  I consider all of this MY GROWTH...heart



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      Cynthia Schmidt wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Mary, you are a profound woman of faith and your faith will get you through this and you’ll come out stronger for it. I have no doubt. You‘re a wonderful woman and God didn’t bring you this far in life to drop you on your head. But, just for a little extra good measure, I’m going to be prayin‘for ya my friend!



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      Sandils1962 wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • You are in my prayers, Mary.  heartheart



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      Mzd3 wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • The others have said it all, Im here rooting for you Mary heartheartheartheart



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      Denise Richardson wrote Aug 9, 2011
    • Mary!!! greater is HE that is in you than he that is in the world. You‘re more than a conqueror you shall keep the victory!happyheartheart



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      Vikki Hall wrote Aug 10, 2011
    • Mary how are things looking today?



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      Mary Clark wrote Aug 10, 2011
    • Good Morning Vikki..

      Things are better.  I went to that Stella & Dot meeting in Augusta.  It was motivating so I’m back on my plan.  I feel like I might conquer all of this now.  Yesterday was just my “pity party“.  I haven’t had one in quite a while...so I guess I was entitled to one.  If I can just keep focused today and accomplish some things I will feel even better.  

      My sister mentioned to me this morning when we were walking about those three siblings on the run from authorities who are considered armed & dangerous.  I thought to myself...that poor mother having to deal with not one child who has gone astray but three.  And I think I have problems!!  Look at her!! Sooo...if I compare myself to her I’m doing GREAT!! I’ve just got to step outside of my box...and GO FOR IT! TAKE THE PLUNGE!!  

      Thank you for asking this morning.  IT’s a half day at work so I’m happy about that.  My goal is to get some things accomplished this afternoon and to stay busy!!



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      Vikki Hall wrote Aug 10, 2011
    • Yeah! I’m glad things are looking brighter. I can’t wait to hear about the S&D!!!



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      Lisa Middlesworth wrote Aug 11, 2011
    • wow Mary, If I didn’t know any better I would think that I had written this. Life has throwed a few curve balls and I have lost some of the fight that I used to have.
      You help me to realize that I have to get up and face the day with a new attitude of gratitude and motivation.
      Thanks for sharing thisheart



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