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Today Is my mother-n-laws Birthday. She passed away 2 years ago. I went with my hubby to the cemetary to take her some flowers and a happy birthday balloon. I have been to the cemetary a few times sence her funeral but I have only been to see her with hubby, sence i don’t drive, I hardly get over there to the cemetary. My Step-Dad (Richard) Is buried there also and I haven’t been to his grave sence my wedding day 14 years agofrown. I know It may sound bad to you, but I am a very emotional person and the slightest sad thing makes me cry. It’s not that I never wanted to visit him, It’s just I never know what to say or what I should do or If other people are watching me and wondering what I’m doing. Today I decided to grab something from my room, something I can leave for my step-dad. I grabbed a clear stone I had with an Angel Inside It. Today was going to be the day I visit my step-dad and leave him the angel. Don’t ask me why today was the day cause I really don’t know and I cannot explaine It. It was just something I knew I wanted to do today. The bad part Is, I hadn’t a clue to where his grave sight was located exactly. I haven’t been there In so long and the last time I was there, I was with my mom so I fallowed her. All I knew was that there was a Tree next to his grave, I know I know, that narrows It down to what..thousands of trees? I knew he was on the bottom of the hill where theres a maze of walls and some small trees. Not many trees, just maybe 4 small trees. I walked thru the mazes and whenever I seen a tree I stopped to look to see If It was him, The third tree I had found him. I kinda said to myself out loud, I FOUND YOU! just glad no one else was around to hear me, then they might have thought I was a bit strange I guess. Hubby was In the truck waiting for me giving me some time alone. I sat down and was quiet at first, and then I said” WOW! I bet your shocked that I am here” then I kinda laughed and knowing my step-dad, he probably laughed along with me. I sat there for awhile and I actually started to talk and tell him what I have been up too and how everyone else was and that I missed him. Of course while all this conversation I was having with him I was crying. Not just because I missed him but because I finally had the courage to visit him and spend some time with him. I left him some really pretty flowers that were Fall colors, don’t remember the name of them but they were differant, Kinda looked like fireworks, not sure how else to explaine It. I also left him a little happy face pumkinhappyas well as the angel I brought for him. My hubby finally walked over to where I was and I was ready to go, I felt good afterwards, This was something I felt I needed to do today and I did It. I will visit my step-dad more often now and sit and talk to him. We have alot of catching up to do, Him and I under the Tree.



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      Lazylola wrote Oct 9, 2009
    • Frannie, that is sweet. I understand how you feel about this. I go visit my dads burial site every time I go back home, I prefer to go alone so I usually go when everyone sleeps. I was touched reading this, I get the feeling you were very close to him. The heart knows what it knows and when it knows it, so your heart spoke to you and you found the peace to go and visit. I’m sure he didn’t think it overdue but was happy to have you there. estatic



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      Janet Wooley wrote Oct 9, 2009
    • I’m glad you went, sounds like you were kinda afraid to go But you overcame that fear and faced it and you were glad you did it. Good for you, have a great weekend. estatic



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      Marilyn09 wrote Oct 10, 2009
    • I think this blog shows just how thoughtful you are.
      Its like you talked to him because you wanted him to ‘know’ that it was you and you knew that he would like that nothing else mattered to you but your visit with him today.



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      Mz. Queen wrote Oct 10, 2009
    • Father and daughter relationships are always delicate and beautiful no matter how old we are or when we get back together.

      love Donna



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      Venus 7000 wrote Oct 10, 2009
    • I was touched by this.  My mom passed away when I was 12 and I have never had the courage to go visit her.  Initially I would have all these stories and jokes that I would be saving to tell her.  But I never went.  Sometimes when I am very sad I can feel her presence.   I am glad that you had the courage to reconnect with your stepdad.



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      Frannie1964 wrote Oct 10, 2009
    • Thank you Ladies for your kind words. I do feel good now and I am glad I went that day. I do feel better Inside. Your kind words meant so much to me.



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