I can’t believe how quickly this weekend seemed to go. I guess it’s because I spent most of yesterday working (repeat to seld - “I love my job, I love my job, I NEED my job, I NEED my job). Couldn’t sleep last night. Ended up staying up way too late (until 3 this morning) watch documentaries. One documentary was on LOGO and was about gay bars in small ‘bible belt’ towns. The gay and lesbian populations in these tiny towns have it pretty rough - even in this day and age. They are terrified that anyone should find out their sexual preference and most stay ‘in the closet‘. They are tormented as kids in school and are basically social outcasts. At worst - they are beaten and killed in violent hate crimes. Pretty sobering stuff.
The other doc I watched was on LINK. It was called ‘Retired Husband Syndrome’ and I was fascinated immediately.
My husband is retired with a disability so I couldn’t wait to watch it even though I wasn’t sure what it was going to be about. Turns out that it was a BBC doc - filmed in Japan. As the Japanese ‘baby boomers’ men are retiring, their wives are less than excited. In their culture, the husband’s job takes us so much of their lives. The wife is just an afterthought. She takes care of the house and really doesn’t even have to see the husband much because of the long work hours. Then - suddenly - they have husbands in their way. They‘re becoming depressed and basically pissed off that they have to ‘share’ the home with their husbands who, even after years of marriage, are little more than strangers since they’ve spent their lives at work. Pretty interesting stuff.
So of course since I was up all night, I spent way too much time sleeping today. Then got in some guitar practice. Played my acoustic guitar a little instead of just the classical guitar. It was fun but it’s strange to go from one to the other when I haven’t played anything but the classical one for months. It’s easy to forget how really different they are.
I’m also working on a sort of ‘experiential journal‘. Basically, instead of just keeping a manually written journal (that I’ve done for years), I’m making my journal more ‘concrete‘. I went to the local Michael’s and bought a big unfinished wooden box, a lot of there little wooden boxes and embellishments. In my ‘main’ box, I’ll have other items and boxes - all of which I’ll decorate/paint/stencil, etc. So far I have a little chalk board that will be my ‘worry board‘. I can write down ‘worries’ - turn them over to the Divine and then simply put them ‘away’ in the main box. I have another box that will serve for hold items for wishes/intentions/goals. There will be another box of accomplishments (that box may hold copies of difficult sheet mucsic I’ve learned or my acceptance letter for the CMP program). The thing that will be cool is that this will be a living, breathing, moving journal. Things will go one ‘worry board’ and will come off as these things are resolved. Goals and accomplishments will be added. Symbols of important events/happenings will be added. It’s kind of cool and I’m really enjoying it.
Now if I just didn’t have to actually ‘work’ and I could spend time doing fun stuff like that  it would be helpful.  ;)