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May 1, 2007

Today You Are Fifteen

"Do you know how I know God loves me?  He gave me you!"

I awoke early this morning, just before sunrise.  Slipping into your room, quietly, quietly, I tiptoed to your bed, and bending down, pressed my lips to your temple.

Stroking the hair from your face, I breathed in your unique scent.  You smelled of shampoo, soap, and Tag cologne, like a boy, my man-child.

A delicate dawn filled your open window: a New May dawn, with the promise of a pink and white day.  A breeze touched my cheek, and the melodious splash of the fountains combined with the quacks and peeps and honks of your beloved ducks and geese.

You murmured in your sleep.  A slow smile, a dreamy smile, drifted across your face, as bending to kiss you again I murmured, "I love you, sweet boy."

I am reminded of the book I read to you every night in your childhood.  One of your favorite books called, Love You Forever.  Like the woman in the story, I used to rock you and hold you, but as you got older, and more independent, those cuddle times became few and far between.  You will still let me hug you, and sometimes you will come and hug me, but those special, sweet times of your babyhood are now a beautiful memory.  They are preserved in my mind like a scented envelope, filled with mental snapshots of you and me, snuggling together with Raspberry or Patches, your favorite afghans.  The envelope is tied with a silken ribbon, indicating that the contents are treasured.

Gently closing your door and tiptoeing down the stairs, I walked to our dining room windows, and gazed upon your favorite place to be: your much-loved lake. The sky was a beautiful rose, as God stretched His fingers across the heavens, pushing back the night, beginning a new day, your day, your 15th birthday.

Soon you will awaken and bound down the stairs, eager to rush into the morning to greet your friends: the animals that live here with us.  The quacking and honking will intensify, as each bird notes your arrival.  They will greet you with their song, their joyous notes of recognition, and once again, I will watch with amazement...amazement at your ability to draw all things to you.

I take a slow sip of coffee, and await your arrival with anticipation.  You will be excited.  This is your special day, and like all of the days of your life, you will make the most of each moment, living each second to its fullest, with a joy that fills me with wonder.

Today you are 15, and I marvel at the swift passage of time, and the impact of your life upon mine.  Raising you and loving you, has set my feet upon a path from which I never want to stray.  You have made me a better person, because you are such a gracious and generous human being, and I could not help but learn by your example.

I have watched you grow, not only in body, but in spirit as well, and walk this earth with your eyes and heart opened wide.  I have been there as you have gone through surgeries, with a courage unequaled in any adult.  I have witnessed your struggle to read, only to become an author. I have seen you evolve from having to be completely taken care of to, in turn, taking care of others.  I have observed in you kindness, openhandedness, love and concern for all around you, be they the people you encounter, or the smallest bird that crosses your path. It is with great joy that I can, without hesitation, say to you: "were you not my son, I would want very much to know you; I would want to be your friend."

I love you, my beautiful boy, and I thank the Lord above every day, for His exquisite

Excerpt from A Very Special Child

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