I have been in mourning for a little while now over friendships that I had to let go.  I tried and tried to hold on and save them but in the end the state I found myself in time and time again caused me to seriously look at walking away from these relationships.

I was utterly surprised at how hurt I felt and likened it to some of the romatic breakups I have had and sat with a glass of wine heart broken over all the memories and times well spent that just was no longer happening with them.  The tears weren’t far away for a while and I listened to all the music we used to all laugh, giggle and dance to.

My friendship with these ladies just wasn’t working out.  I felt hurt by them at every dealing I had and whenever I felt compelled to call them for anything, I had anxiety attacks and quite frankly would have enjoyed a dental appointment more.

So sadly I no longer have these relationships and still I am feeling the sadness of the loss but feel a little more empowered as a person who took a stand and decided that I would not continue to allow them to treat me disrespectfully, in what became a toxic relationship.  

There were some lovely enrichening experiences in the beginning but in the end it just wasn’t anymore.  I am very sad.