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Wow! This 44th birthday has been the hardest of all for me. My lips are finally healed from my permenant lip liner adventure but man I have just been so depressed! Did not help that I came home from working as a nurse exhausted. My work day was so crazy I did not even take a lunch break & I still could not get home on time. My husband cooked T-bone steaks at home which was nice because I was too exhausted to get ready to go out to dinner. The first bite of the steak was terrible & my hubby is a great cook. The butcher gave him a new packet of seasoning to use & it was horrible!Then the cake my hubby got was so dry. I told him it was great cause he already felt bad about the steaks. We both made faces as we had taken the first bite of steak so I was glad he was the first to say the steak was awful. He too made a comment about the cake but I fibbed cause he felt bad enough about the steak. I am getting bitch day going a day early ladies  it seems. Yesterday was okay & we went out to dinner which was okay but m hubby kept saying you pick the place to go So I was ready to try a new restaurant & then once I had my mind made up he said we really need to go to Red Lobster. Woke up today with a migraine & I had my first official daytime hot flash & my hubby thought I was nuts. He says I think into things too much. Then we who hardly ever spat, had an argument yesterday & all day today he was sarcastic & now we just had another spat over something stupid. He kills me with kindness cause it’s your birthday lasted one day & it’s like he saved up all the things he was thinking & did not want to say to me on my birthday cause it was my birthday(Sept.28th) just spewed out of him today. It’s sad my little 2 day break since I worked the weekend is over & I am so happy to be going back to work. Sorry ladies I hope my pitty parties since turning 44 stop soon cause I want to start typing about positive adventures! He just cracked the door open & apologised for being so snippy. Am having a hard time saying that’s okay cause he was SNIPPY all day! Oh well..tomorrow is another day & everything will be OK? (Like the Annie song ) I’m closing for now & having a glass a wine catching a little Leno & then going to bed. Please, Please, Please let tomorrow be a good day! Well if it’s not but I’m hoping it is I’ll have something to say for OFFICIAL BITCH DAY! I want ti to be a good day though! ay carumba!



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      Yana Berlin wrote Sep 30, 2008
    • I think you need a big hug.

      Some days are just not “our days” today was one of those day for you.

      Tomorrow is the new beginning.

      Smile it will all be okay.

      Sending you a big hug.



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      Gwendolyn007 wrote Sep 30, 2008
    • Go ahead, it’s ok to get it all out!!  Tomorrow will be a better day.  And thank you for being a nurse. I have had some wonderful nurses help me in my life & truly appreciate how caring they can be!!

      Sending lots of hugs & smiles your way,
      Gwen



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      Sbajger wrote Sep 30, 2008
    • You look great, and you will still be the same its just a number. I just turned 50 the worst part is thinking how much longer do I have left. I know Im not going to live another 50 years, so make the best of what we have right now, and live it like it was your last.

      Sara



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      Sherri Tarran wrote Oct 6, 2008
    • (((Rita)))
      I am 44 also, it hit me hard too - don’t know why - like Sara said, “just a number” I guess because I never really had health concerns before and this year seemed to be “the year“.  And your husband sounds a lot like mine - he thinks he is “joking” but you would think that a man who has lived with not only me but 3 daughters would know better than to “joke” when it is obvious I am either pms-ing (which I didn’t know was still possible after a hysterectomy) or menopausing - I finally wrote him a letter (because I wanted to say everything I felt without him interrupting by getting defensive) anyway, I told him everything I was feeling and going through and that some of the things he said hurt my feelings etc etc.  I left it on the seat of his truck in the morning before I left for work and he emailed me later that day and felt so bad.  Sometimes I don’t think they are aware of how much we are going through - hormones, bodies changing, being tired all the time, hot flashes - it’s a downer!!

      Hang in there though girlfriend - always here if you need to talk!!
      Sherri



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