September 20, 2009
It is 2:30 a.m. and I’ve been rudely awakened by yet another migraine. The pain is almost unbearable and I try to gather all of my inner strength to crawl out of bed and feel my way to the freezer for the ice packs. Even though it is dark outside and no lights are on in the house the ambient light in the house pierces my eyes and stabs my brain. Even the seemingly innocent lights like those from the digital clock from the nightstand or the one from the microwave are now sending out blinding, painful light. I make my way back to the bed...snuggle under the blanket, pack my head in the ice and cover my eyes with a sleeping mask. I then pull the blanket over my head so I can block out any remaining light that is peering through the barrier that I have built. As I am laying there feeling the cold starting to numb the pain and praying for relief a constant thought is racing through my mind. I was thinking about the masks that I wear in life...sometimes daily that block out the “Light“(Jesus). Resentment is the mask that I’m wearing most often. The mask of resentment sometimes comes in different “colors” such as anger, unforgiveness and self pity. The mask of resentment is blocking out the “Light“. So much so, that I am not allowing others to see the “Light” through me or even able to see the “Light” from others. Mask such as these block the “Light“....the “Light” that heals, takes away pain and brings joy. Even during times in my life when I “think” that I have hidden away my “masks” they seem to be readily perched atop my head or hanging around my neck waiting for an instance where I can use it to “cover my eyes” or “protect my heart“. In reality, I know that I must allow the “Light” to shine. I must get rid of the mask of resentment and all of it’s “colors” forever. With a migraine the darkness helps to relieve the pain and bring healing. In life only the “Light” brings healing, comfort and joy.
What mask are you wearing today?