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Where are you in your life? The kids left home, or are they still at home? Do you work full time or run your own business?
Where I am is turning 42 next month. Working for someone else, and it is just a job. I have a desire to have my own business, but as we all know the lack of the mighty buck can control the reaching of our dreams.
I have to say am very blessed in my family and my marriage.
On our anniversary in January it will be 24 years. We have managed to maintain a working marriage. I say working because we have had to work at our relationship. We have taken the time to care for each other's hearts. We have fought, laughed, cried, deeply loved, and held on to each other through it all.
Even as our boys have struggled to grow up. Our oldest, Dustin is in Air Force Reserves. He is in an awful marriage that he wants out of. We are not happy about having our son of 21 going thru the big D. The boy“s every happiness is our desire. Dusty has volunteered to go to Afghanistan. He is just waiting to be deployed. The fear of that phone call saying I am leaving, is tearing me apart. We support our son and are very proud of him.
Our youngest, Chris is still in and out of the house. He stays with us part of the week and the rest of the week at his brother’s apartment. So not quite and empty nest for us yet. Chris graduated from Job Corps and is certified and trained in security. He is struggling to get started. The company he works for currently can’t seem to get him a full time post. He wants a place of his is own and we want that for him too.
So as 42 lurks around the corner I wonder have I reached my personal goals I set for myself? Do I still have time? What am I now that I am not a full time mom? Who am I?
I am a loved woman by my husband, my boys, my family, and my friends. I guess I shouldn’t call them my boys; they are young men who are strong and will find their footing in life.
As for me, well I am going to continue to search for me that isn’t a full time mom anymore. Still a mom, always a mom. Now it is time to concentrate more on my relationship with my husband. Working towards my own business, whatever that may be. Finding out what I want?
How about you? Where are you?