Now that the pandemonium over my book promotion has ended, one of the questions I am asking myself is "What will I do now?"

I didn't achieve my goal of Best Selling Author. Having the title brings about a lot of prestige and potential offers. When it was all over I received numerous congratulations messages but no one was beating down my door to offer me a publishing deal oroffer to pay meto share my "How Did You Do That?" story. Because Amazon takes a huge chunk of the sales (55%), I probably won't receive that much for my hard work. So it looks like I'm back to square one...still unemployed...still trying to get my book in the "right" hands...and still trying to persevere against all odds.

This is the "mental let down" that happens after you've achieved such a high. You start reflecting more on why it didn't work out the way you wanted. What could you have done differently? Was it just a waste of time and energy?

Well, that's what I'm doing this weekend...reflecting. But I'm also thanking God through it all because I know I had to have help from a Higher Power to achieve any of the success I accomplished on Thursday, November 16, 2006.

I'm also thanking you here at Fabulously 40---especially Yana Berlin,Kathy Holmes, Dana Hall and Dawn Prince--whose kind words of inspiration kept me going on days when it was a struggle to be positive.

I'm so grateful to have the kind of husband I have because he had to endure alot during my "quest" but he hung in there and gave me undying love and support through it all. I thank God daily for him and I look so forward to the day when he can quit his job and let me be the breadwinner. He deserves a break.

I've learned so much in the past 48 hours...things I never learned in college.