First I want to say HAPPY NEW YEAR to every one!!! I want to say so much but i feel i’m not a writer. Anyways since i turned 40 everything started changing in my life. But i didn’t recognized what it was. I worry about weight even though i’d never been over weight. I worry about wrinkles. I look in the mirror for all the changes. I’m very, very moody. No hot flashes yet. But then i was thinking today why worry about the inevitable. I’m gonna try to make the best of it. Enjoy my life. Enjoy my wisdom. Because if we think about it we are so different now. Mature, intelligent and confident. Something i didn’t have when i was on my twenties. And yet sometimes i want to go back to that age. But why? What is it about the 20 that i want? The youth?...I don’t know because honestly I feel more sexy and with less inhibition that when i was younger. Its like some days I’m ok being 48. But some other day i hate it so much that i can cry. My mom said to me after you are over with menopause then you are gonna feel so great. I’m really looking forward for that. Meanwhile I’m gonna have to keep walking thru this dark woods because i know that the meadow its close.

I  have to say I’m very happy. Sumthin happened yesterday that makes me think there still  hope. My husband n I separated about a year ago. With this situation I had to give away my two dogs. It was very painful but i had no other choice. The place I was livin didn’t want pets. Even though i gave them to good ppl it was very painful. Well we got back together n things r been goin good. But my husband knew i was missing the dogs. Two days ago i got a phone call from one of the families. The one that took  the male were movin n couldn’t take the dogs w them. Ranger(my puppy) came back home yesterday. Its like he never left.