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Neicy’s In sight
I am now almost into a month since my foot/ankle and for the most part I was doing well. Here lately I’m having some serious pain due to the healing process I suppose, and it don’t feel good. My mental health is declining a bit because I feel defeated at the moment. Now that I’m relying on my right leg to hold me this knee is starting to hurt and I just had knee surgery on it this past April. My sciatic nerve is starting to bother me again whereas it was doing ok, so I’m just a mess right now and I’m not liking this ne bit. I’m in constant pain all the time from head to toe. I have some very serious pain meds, and I do take them, but here lately I’m finding that my body is starting o crave them if I don’t take them and I’m not one to be getting hooked on pain killers. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard plate. I try not to let my family see me cry due to my depression and I refuse to allow the doctor prescribe me any anti-depressants. I just want to get past this an feel better, but it seems as soon as I think I’m over the hump, ere comes something else to set me back. I tell my husband all the time to just dig the hole so I can fall in it now. If the rest of my life have to be with all this pain and discomfort, let me go now. This is how I truly feel. It’s not a pity party I’m just tired of hurting and being unable to do for me as I once could. My arthritis is so severe it is literally taking over my entire body from head to toe. Jesus!
It’s been a long time coming, I had my reconstructive foot surgery on Friday October 3rd. I had no idea my left foot was as bad as it was. The orthopedic surgeon had to restructure my whole foot and Ankle, defuse some bones in the ankle adding screws and plates and the long screws in the heel of my foot because the arthritis had taken up all the cartilage in my heel and entire foot. The surgery went well without complications I’ve been home since Saturday I stay one night in the hospital due to low blood pressure and me not coming out from under the anesthesia soon enough. My family has been a huge help in my home care, the hospital reps are calling checking in on me as well as the doctors office and the anesthesiologist. I was sent home with a pain pump and today was the last day for my use. It really kept me pain free for the 3 days.
My doctor was amazing the best in her field. She made absolutely sure I had everything I needed for my home recovery which will be a total of 4~5 months of no weight bearing on my foot. I get around on a knee scooter which is cool. I’m also waiting on the compression machine that’s suppose to be here today to keep my foot cool and free from blood clots I also give my self injections for not clotting as well. So I should began physical therapy around January. It’s a long road for me but it’s all good.
Well after meeting with my orthopedic specialist yesterday and I finally stopped crying I’ve come to realize this has to be done and there is no other way around it and it is what it is. After she did more xrays of my foot and ankle she found that the arthritis has progressed into my big toe where I received an injection for pain relief. She took 45 minutes to explain my xrays and the procedure she will do. In essence my entire left foot will be reconstructed to bring it back to it’s proper position currently it points out to the left, there will be a cleaning out of the arthritis and debris, she will have to put screws in my ankle because I have no more cartilage and titanium plates in my foot, SMH I wasn’t expecting to hear about the plates, but it is what it is. The procedure will take 4-5 hours and I will not be able to use my foot for about 3 months in order to heal properly. She will meet with my family on the 23rd, to explain to them the procedure and my home care and answer any questions they may have. My surgery is scheduled for Oct. 3rd until then I must continue to wear the Arizona boot so I don’t brake or fracture the ankle it’s that fragile. So I solicit the prayers of my friends, family, church family. I must be honest in saying this is weighing heavy on me, my quality of life right now is not sitting well mentally with me. Thanks to those of you who took the time to read my post and who are praying and will continue to pray for me.
This is the day that the Lord hath made I will rejoice and be glad in it! today is my 54th birthday and I’m glad to see it, I had so many who I knew at my age that didn’t make it to this age. Life is truly a blessing and I thank God daily for mine aches, pains, ups and downs and all. I didn’t plan anything special I’m just happy to be here with the love of my family. My gifts were a surprise from my hubby a 2015 Kia Sorento SUV loaded, my baby girl gave me the purse I wanted out of her boutique I got cash from my oldest brother and my oldest is surprising me with something later, but all in all I got the best gift, the gift of a blessed life handed down to me by God. Happy Birthday to me, Thank you Jesus
A FACEBOOK POST I DID
In my private times of reading and meditating on the Word of God, I struggle with trying to keep my focus on Him when I see and hear so many in the ministry walking out and taking the reins from God doing their own thing and going their own way. I am reminded that His Word tells us that “there is none righteous, not one” and that we are not to “put our trust in no man” and that “WE ALL” shall be held accountable for the things we do good or bad. I’m just in awe at some things people post here on Facebook when it comes to trying to reach the lost, saving souls, leading people to Christ, in the bible it also tells us that “the tongue is an unruly vessel and no man can tame it” but IF we who are called by God are walking, talking, and teaching in the Spirit of God we would never speak offensively to others, in my opinion that would be their flesh talking and NOT The Holy Spirit. When your trying to reach people and build them up in their most holy faith as the Word of The Lord tells us to do, lashing out at people will only cause them to run from you, your ministry etc... And then others in ministry may even look at you sideways if they know that what you did is a true offense to others. WE all need to go back and reexamine ourselves and ask God to show us our errors and get it right! I for one am sick and tired of people playing games with ministry. But again, I’m not God I wasn’t there when He called you, if in fact it was His voice doing the calling, but we need to stop offending people because we are feeling some kind of way, you don’t know other peoples story, what they are dealing with, or where they may be in their life trials. We as Christians are suppose to show love agape love to ALL no matter what!!!
Titles mean nothing in the eyes of God, what he looks for is dedication to him, and the way WE walk out the call he has put on our lives. Being in leadership in any position is a load to carry, but just because you carry a certain position does not give you or anyone the right to offend others. Jesus said “I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with unfailing kindness” Jer. 31:3 if this is how Jesus did and WE who are called by HIS name, aren’t we too suppose to draw people with love and kindness instead of offending them??? I’m just saying I’m seeing and hearing too many people getting in their own way and being puffed up because of who they think they are. And for those who follow them and jolly in their wrong doings will have to answer for it as well at some point when will correction come in to play? We all need to be told the truth when we‘re in error it’s not funny to offend people. Go have several seats and rethink on your self, and who you just like we all have to answer to in the end.
“HAPPY FRIDAY, people!”
Hey my Fab friends, I tried to log in as much as I could prior to my knee surgery but things got in the way. Well I had my knee surgery on 4/24 and it went well. I’m now in my 4th day of recovery at home. I’m doing well just still sore of course and the knee still has a lot of swelling but I’m healing. I hope this procedure works if not the doctor says he will go on and replace the knee. My family is very supportive and is here helping me in my recovery. My granddaughter Jadyn is the main nurse in this LOL, she is calling all the shots with my hubby and my daughters. She was with me from the day of surgery until just yesterday when she had to leave me and go home for school. She cried because she had to leave me she is such a great grandchild. Well I’m bored out of my mind but I do have my book to work on and write letters. I just can’t wait to get back to the gym. My appetite isn’t the greatest, so I hope I’m still losing the weight in my recovery. I really miss going to the gym and I can’t wait to get back to my workouts. Well I hope all of you are doing well and are having a good Spring so far.