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Neicy’s In sight
After all I endured last year going through the reconstructive foot and ankle surgery here it is I had to go under the knife again on the same foot for the same surgery. I had the second surgery on May 6, 2015. Due to the bones NOT infusing together the way the doctor had planned I had to undergo another surgery to correct some issues as well them removing a golf ball size tumor that was growing in my ankle. This surgery seems worst than the first and it truly has taken a toll on me and I know my family even though they haven’t said so or shown it. This is too much for anyone to bear. I just hop and pray that this time around I heal properly an without any other issues.
Well it’s been 7 weeks going on 8 weeks as of Dec.3 that I had my foot/ankle surgery and I guess I can say I’m over the hump of I all. However with my 5 cast I did take it off 4 days before my last doctors appointment because I was feeling the blisters forming and popping within the cast, I took it off and I was right, I had so many blisters on my foot but no infections thank God. The doctor was ok with me taking it off seeing that I was coming in to see her. I’m on my 6th cast which I hope is my last, and I will see the doctor on Tuesday. If all is well I’ll be starting physical therapy within a week and then I can get back to the gym yeah!!!! I hope I don’t have difficulty walking on the foot with all the hardware in it and a new arch. I was always flat footed so I’m not sure what this is going to feel like, I had a special shoe insert made to balance me out evenly. My pain is very minimal unless I do something to the foot or it gets uncomfortable, but for the most part I think I’m ready to get on the good foot lol.
I am now almost into a month since my foot/ankle and for the most part I was doing well. Here lately I’m having some serious pain due to the healing process I suppose, and it don’t feel good. My mental health is declining a bit because I feel defeated at the moment. Now that I’m relying on my right leg to hold me this knee is starting to hurt and I just had knee surgery on it this past April. My sciatic nerve is starting to bother me again whereas it was doing ok, so I’m just a mess right now and I’m not liking this ne bit. I’m in constant pain all the time from head to toe. I have some very serious pain meds, and I do take them, but here lately I’m finding that my body is starting o crave them if I don’t take them and I’m not one to be getting hooked on pain killers. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard plate. I try not to let my family see me cry due to my depression and I refuse to allow the doctor prescribe me any anti-depressants. I just want to get past this an feel better, but it seems as soon as I think I’m over the hump, ere comes something else to set me back. I tell my husband all the time to just dig the hole so I can fall in it now. If the rest of my life have to be with all this pain and discomfort, let me go now. This is how I truly feel. It’s not a pity party I’m just tired of hurting and being unable to do for me as I once could. My arthritis is so severe it is literally taking over my entire body from head to toe. Jesus!
It’s been a long time coming, I had my reconstructive foot surgery on Friday October 3rd. I had no idea my left foot was as bad as it was. The orthopedic surgeon had to restructure my whole foot and Ankle, defuse some bones in the ankle adding screws and plates and the long screws in the heel of my foot because the arthritis had taken up all the cartilage in my heel and entire foot. The surgery went well without complications I’ve been home since Saturday I stay one night in the hospital due to low blood pressure and me not coming out from under the anesthesia soon enough. My family has been a huge help in my home care, the hospital reps are calling checking in on me as well as the doctors office and the anesthesiologist. I was sent home with a pain pump and today was the last day for my use. It really kept me pain free for the 3 days.
My doctor was amazing the best in her field. She made absolutely sure I had everything I needed for my home recovery which will be a total of 4~5 months of no weight bearing on my foot. I get around on a knee scooter which is cool. I’m also waiting on the compression machine that’s suppose to be here today to keep my foot cool and free from blood clots I also give my self injections for not clotting as well. So I should began physical therapy around January. It’s a long road for me but it’s all good.
Well after meeting with my orthopedic specialist yesterday and I finally stopped crying I’ve come to realize this has to be done and there is no other way around it and it is what it is. After she did more xrays of my foot and ankle she found that the arthritis has progressed into my big toe where I received an injection for pain relief. She took 45 minutes to explain my xrays and the procedure she will do. In essence my entire left foot will be reconstructed to bring it back to it’s proper position currently it points out to the left, there will be a cleaning out of the arthritis and debris, she will have to put screws in my ankle because I have no more cartilage and titanium plates in my foot, SMH I wasn’t expecting to hear about the plates, but it is what it is. The procedure will take 4-5 hours and I will not be able to use my foot for about 3 months in order to heal properly. She will meet with my family on the 23rd, to explain to them the procedure and my home care and answer any questions they may have. My surgery is scheduled for Oct. 3rd until then I must continue to wear the Arizona boot so I don’t brake or fracture the ankle it’s that fragile. So I solicit the prayers of my friends, family, church family. I must be honest in saying this is weighing heavy on me, my quality of life right now is not sitting well mentally with me. Thanks to those of you who took the time to read my post and who are praying and will continue to pray for me.
This is the day that the Lord hath made I will rejoice and be glad in it! today is my 54th birthday and I’m glad to see it, I had so many who I knew at my age that didn’t make it to this age. Life is truly a blessing and I thank God daily for mine aches, pains, ups and downs and all. I didn’t plan anything special I’m just happy to be here with the love of my family. My gifts were a surprise from my hubby a 2015 Kia Sorento SUV loaded, my baby girl gave me the purse I wanted out of her boutique I got cash from my oldest brother and my oldest is surprising me with something later, but all in all I got the best gift, the gift of a blessed life handed down to me by God. Happy Birthday to me, Thank you Jesus