For the past few weeks I hadn’t been feeling well in my physical body, but I would push past my aches and pains, and my sluggish gait and do what I had to do go make the donuts (go to work). On a few of those ocassions my hubby tried to get me to stay home to rest because he knew I wasn’t feeling well, but to no avail, I pushed past him and went to do my job at work. Not really listening to him nor my body all I could see was the faces of my residents when I’m not there. I have been told on so many ocassions that my unit (Memory Care) is NOT the same when I’m not there and it shows when I do go in from an off day, but I’m just dedicated to my little residents.

I know I have to think of me and my health, but I’m not one to just call off, sick or not unless it is so debilitating that I have to. Well on Tuesday while at work I began to feel really bad I was having hot and cold sweats, dizziness and just feeling sluggish, but I made it through my shift. When I got home my hubby was already gone off to work so I thought, so I go in and lay down for about an hour.

I wake up to having this heavy feeling as though something was sitting on my chest and I couldn’t breathe so I got up to go take myself into the E.R and who walks through the door before I could get to the bathroom? My hubby I asked him why wasn’t he at work?, he said “something told me to come home!” Thank you Jesus! I told him I needed to get to the hospital so he took me and after all the tests were ran, they found that I have pneumonia in my left lung which is the same lung my doctor has been watching with a nodule on it. So after hours in the E.R and tests they admitted me in.

My room-mate was an elderly little caucasian woman and she was very weak and frail to look at her. She nodded her head hello as we entered the room she was in the 1st bed I had the window view. She was very quiet, you never knew she was in the room unless she had a vistior or received a phone call. But what did catch my eye on her side of the room was the fact that she kept her TV channel on the hospital’s chapel room she kept that in her view the entire time she was in the room with me I felt comfort in knowing she had faith and was leaning on it. Well on my 2nd day with her, she began to turn in her health I never really heard her speak loudly, but she would make mourning sounds like she was in great pain.

I didn’t know her eliments, but my heart and prayers went out to her. Well on one of the nurses rounds one nurse found her to be looking a little distressed and called out to her, but she couldn’t respond, so she called for more backup and lo’ and behold this woman was literally dying. Before you could blink all sorts of carts, doctors, nurses and trama-team members were in there trying all they could do for this woman to keep her alive.

My hubby and my baby girl was there with me at the time of this event and it was something to hear, because they had pulled the curtains and worked on her endlessly, by me working in the medical field for over 20+ years I know a lot of the terminology and boy oh boy, was she in bad shape.
At one point they brought out the big guns the electric shock paddles, but couldn’t use them because she had a pacemaker. The CPR wasn’t seeming to work, this woman had died once and they got her back, then after a few minutes of her being resuccitated, they lost her again more CPR they got her back again, then again they lost her, but got her back after she was somewhat steady they rushed her to ICU, my poor hubby sat there in tears.

He looked at me and said “see this is why we must live our lives to the fullest you just never know when your time is up!” I so agree, he now has a new outlook on life, just with me being in the hospital scared him, he is so pitful when it comes to sickness and is so lost, he even took out another insurance policy on us lol. How many policies does one need lol, but I totally understand what he is saying, after they got her out of the room and into the ICU two of the nurses came back to the room to apologize for all the trama and noise, we (my family) looked at them and said, “you owe us no apology for doing your job, I commend the entire staff for all you did for that woman, if it were me or one of my loved ones I’d hope for the same quick thinking and actions and would hope that the family with me would also be just as understanding.) They were so over whelmed with our responses and all they could do was smile hugely and say thank you for understanding, that in my opinion is a given, but as for the lady she was doing a bit better, I asked one of the nurses that had worked with her and she told me she was still recovering in ICU.  

I take my hat off to the entire Beaumont (Royal Oak, Michigan) Hospital for making my time there as pleasent and peaceful and I highly recommend their staff and services.

We've all heard the old saying "you never really miss the water til the well runs dry!" which is such a true statement. During this time of preparation for Easter, I found myself thinking of my mom and the days of old when we were little kids and how my mom would go over and beyond her call of duty to ensure that we all had a wonderful Easter, from the outfits, to the hot pressed hair and bangs she would give all four girls and trim the boys hair, she made sure we had the best she could give. Then she would make sure we had a feast fit for a king and went out of her way to place the colored eggs we dyed the night before in places outside we would not even think of looking but, she'd always give us great clues where to find them.

My mom was the best! As I’m in my kitchen cooking for our Easter dinner I have my grand daughter with me and was thinking how different parents of today are with their kids they miss out on so much, I did the same things with my two daughters as my mom did for us, but the new generation of parents have not a clue what it is to help celebrate with their kids, even though I know the truth about this special day, I still like seeing all the little kiddies all spruced up and looking forward to the egg hunts and eating the ears off the chocolate bunnies lol.

Times have truly changed what I see most is the grandparents taking over ensuring that the babies have the cute little frilly dresses and the patent leather shoes and bows and bonnets, the lace gloves the the cute little purses to hold all their little candies lol. The parents of today are barely dressing their kids and if they do for the most part its in the latest pair of gym shoes and designer jeans and tops! OK so call me old fashion if you must and I also know that this day has nothing to do with the attire of any of us but it was so nice to see the kiddies all dolled up. LOL.  

I miss my mom, but I thank her for all she did for us as kids and keeping me with the wonderful legacy of thoughts as to how a mom and grandmom should be for those they love. Thanks mom! R.I.P

I am just so very proud of her and tears of joy flow as I think on my mom and wishing she was here to see her oldest grand child live out her dreams.

I am one proud mama, my oldest daughter is on the cover of HER DETROIT MAGAZINE and she is doing a modeling spread modeling spring fashion for the full figured woman, I am so excited for her she is truly living out her dreams, to GOD be ALL the glory!

Her Quote: Check me out on the cover of HER Detroit Magazine!!!!! This is a real magazine and I'm honored they selected me to be the plus size model for this issue. I'm featured inside modeling spring clothes for the full and fabulous! Thank God for this opportunity!  

Saturday night hubby and I went out to a birthday party of one of my old high school classmates and boy did we have a ball. He and I were accompanied by my friend Vickie and her Bo, we got there and it was almost standing room only but we did manage to get seated at a table seemingly just for us. There were so many people there that I hadn’t seen since I was sixteen that didn’t make our class reunion, but the party was just like a class reunion it was so awesome to see old classmates and old neighborhood friends.

There were people there whom I forgot about but they remembered me and was so excited to see me. I received so many compliments that I almost felt like I was stealing the lime-light from the birthday girl lol. Hubby and I danced the night way it was so much fun. I should’ve took some pics, but I wasn’t thinking lol. :( but next time we step out I’ll be sure to capture some snap shots.

WOW! I tell you I have had a very busy week all the way up to this very moment, my work week was long and tiresome and I was suppose be with the play production this weekend, but they had to use my understudy for the show I just couldn’t make it my body has given out. Yesterday I was on the go up until 2am and had to go to work this morning and rise up at 4:30am “lawd” knows I didn’t want to go in, but thanks be to GOD for His power and strength I made it through. Last night we had our regular chruch service and I felt so lead to go because I had missed out a a few services and my pastor sure made it known to me that I was missed in the service so me and my weary body found enough strength to go.

It started out as a usual service and the word of the Lord was going forth great, but with some great revelations to boot and I was so sleepy I was dozing slightly, but I was keeping up with the service, I was so sleepy on several ocassions during the service I wanted to just creep out and leave to go home for bed, but I just couldn't find the strength to leave. I stayed the entire service, but as the service continue I was getting the just of the message, but wasn't feeling anything moving on the inside of me until almost the final few moments of service and all of a sudden the Holy Spirit moved upon me and the Lord, spoke a word down in my spirit. "OPEN DOORS!" My whole entire body jumped with excitement now mind you I had been sitting the whole entire service even during praise and worship because I was just too tired to stand, but when the Holy Spirit moved upon me I couldn't keep my composure in my seat I had to get up and go up to the altar, and worship.

There where still people at the altar and the Lord spoke to me concerning "Open Doors!"  I'm so glad I followed the leading of the Holy Spirit and I didn't leave or I guess I would have missed what God wanted to say to me. Thank God for whats to come in my life I'm looking for the manifestation of these new doors that is about to opened in my life. I know it is going to be something so great and so awesome. Thank you Lord Jesus!