For as long as I can remember, I have always found myself either giving a listening ear, or giving wise counsel to so many people without even putting any thought in it. As far back as high-school I can remember my friends calling on me for my advice, opinions etc... Even to this very day many still call upon me for sound advice while knowing what they share with me would not be shared with others. As a matter of fact I still have two childhood friends who call upon me on a regular basis for advice on things their dealing with in their relationships.

Well I have been labeled by some as a mother-hen so to speak, because I’m always advising and I show love and compassion with it. Well I have been asking the Lord to move me in a new area of ministry, but I never knew what area to go into, so I stood still, while still attending my current church.
Many of you here know that I am a licensed Evangelist and have ministered in the pulpit as well as in prisons. But I felt God had something else for me to do. So I pondered over what and prayed about the direction I should go unto the Lord.

Well I felt led of the Holy Spirit to text my pastors letting them know I wanted to get busy within the ministry, but didn’t know where to serve, but was praying about it. Well the head pastor text me back saying that we needed to chat and that he’d call me, so today he and I spoke on the matter now without me even sharing my thoughts about counseling, he said the Lord told him that I need to be the one ministering and counseling the young single mothers who are struggling in the church with life and their children. I was so blew back because I knew this was God. My prayer was answered and it came through the pastor as conformation as to what I already knew.    

So he and I will chat again Wednesday night after bible study, this is so ordained of God. Just the other day in service I was lead to pray with a young single mom with 2 kids and as I prayed the Holy Spirit led me and as I prayed she just seeped, became humbled as to what the Spirit was saying, so I know this is what I’m suppose to be doing. But not just because of that situation, I had felt the leading of God in this area for a very, long time but I didn’t heed til now, it’s time.

So I am humbled and I am getting into the birthing position so that God can birth a new thing in me so I can be used and be effective in my calling.

It’s been a minute since my last blog, but so much has been going on and I haven’t had a lot of time to spend here on Fab40, oh how I have missed this place. It is my peace and solitude. Well first let me say all is well just a few bumps and bruises here and there, but hey that’s life you pick yourself up dust yourself off and keep it movin! Well as you all know my hubby graduated a few weeks ago so proud of him and now he is preparing to go back to school for more, what a man lol. My job and all of its drama has quieted down some they fired a lot of the trouble makers and we have several new faces in the place so hopefully the others have learned their lessons and will comply with the rules of the establishment.

However I still am aware that I still have some hater's on board and still have to watch my back, but God is my protection. My grandbaby is doing awesomely well in school and is growing like a weed she will be turning 6 in August, she is so smart and I love her to pieces. Both my daughters are doing well with their business'es and my youngest is currently studying under my oldest for her cosmetology license. I have been working like a hebrew slave, but I shall "NOT" complain I'm grateful for having a job. I'm currently looking for a new home there are soooooo many beautiful homes in the area we're looking and in a great price range, oh the choices and the decisions to be made lol. I am still struggling to lose this weight, but am determined to do it, we have started a weight loss challenge at my job and guess who is on my team?? Pretty much the whole administration team with the exception of a few people oh boy lol, I feel like I'm under a looking glass now lol. No but this is going to be fun we also have to put in walking hours as well as did a weigh in this is going to be a blast the team who loses the most weight and puts in the most walking hours by July 31st is the winner.
I’m not sure of the prize yet but it s all in fun anyhow.

I’m trying to get a grip on some other things in life so much to do with little time to do it, church and being active in it, trying to get back to my book I’m writing and just being a wife, mom, nana and counselor to so many its just not enough time to do anything these days. I also would like to join another ministry at my church but not sure what area to go into right now I’m currently helping them out in the drama team area. I have taken a back seat to ministering in the pulpit since I came to this ministry trying to see how it is going to work out for me. I’ll move in that arena when God speaks to me concerning that.
I truly hope and pray we can find a new home and move as soon as the end of this year or the beginning of the next year I miss having my own space, my own yard, and decorating how I want.
Well gotta move on there is still lots for me to do until next time have a great day!

Night before last I had a dream I was in this big church, and this pastor was assembling some of his parishioners to go out into the neighborhood and be a witness for Jesus. Ok so the people go out in groups, but went outside their boundaries. They come back with a report to the pastor and he shares with the church that from that neighborhood outreach ministry effort, 118 people gave their lives to Christ. (End of Dream)

Ok so yesterday I was sharing the dream with my godmother/sister, one of my godbrother’s happened to stop by and as I was telling the story the number 118 rang a bell in his head and said that’s daddy’s birthdate 1-18, why did he go and play it in the lottery and the number fell it came 811, even though I don’t play the lottery I still could have used a few extra dollars lol, it was a blessing in disguise no matter how anyone else may look at it lol. Well he did play it for a few dollars, but wished he’d put more on the number lol.

For the past few weeks I hadn’t been feeling well in my physical body, but I would push past my aches and pains, and my sluggish gait and do what I had to do go make the donuts (go to work). On a few of those ocassions my hubby tried to get me to stay home to rest because he knew I wasn’t feeling well, but to no avail, I pushed past him and went to do my job at work. Not really listening to him nor my body all I could see was the faces of my residents when I’m not there. I have been told on so many ocassions that my unit (Memory Care) is NOT the same when I’m not there and it shows when I do go in from an off day, but I’m just dedicated to my little residents.

I know I have to think of me and my health, but I’m not one to just call off, sick or not unless it is so debilitating that I have to. Well on Tuesday while at work I began to feel really bad I was having hot and cold sweats, dizziness and just feeling sluggish, but I made it through my shift. When I got home my hubby was already gone off to work so I thought, so I go in and lay down for about an hour.

I wake up to having this heavy feeling as though something was sitting on my chest and I couldn’t breathe so I got up to go take myself into the E.R and who walks through the door before I could get to the bathroom? My hubby I asked him why wasn’t he at work?, he said “something told me to come home!” Thank you Jesus! I told him I needed to get to the hospital so he took me and after all the tests were ran, they found that I have pneumonia in my left lung which is the same lung my doctor has been watching with a nodule on it. So after hours in the E.R and tests they admitted me in.

My room-mate was an elderly little caucasian woman and she was very weak and frail to look at her. She nodded her head hello as we entered the room she was in the 1st bed I had the window view. She was very quiet, you never knew she was in the room unless she had a vistior or received a phone call. But what did catch my eye on her side of the room was the fact that she kept her TV channel on the hospital’s chapel room she kept that in her view the entire time she was in the room with me I felt comfort in knowing she had faith and was leaning on it. Well on my 2nd day with her, she began to turn in her health I never really heard her speak loudly, but she would make mourning sounds like she was in great pain.

I didn’t know her eliments, but my heart and prayers went out to her. Well on one of the nurses rounds one nurse found her to be looking a little distressed and called out to her, but she couldn’t respond, so she called for more backup and lo’ and behold this woman was literally dying. Before you could blink all sorts of carts, doctors, nurses and trama-team members were in there trying all they could do for this woman to keep her alive.

My hubby and my baby girl was there with me at the time of this event and it was something to hear, because they had pulled the curtains and worked on her endlessly, by me working in the medical field for over 20+ years I know a lot of the terminology and boy oh boy, was she in bad shape.
At one point they brought out the big guns the electric shock paddles, but couldn’t use them because she had a pacemaker. The CPR wasn’t seeming to work, this woman had died once and they got her back, then after a few minutes of her being resuccitated, they lost her again more CPR they got her back again, then again they lost her, but got her back after she was somewhat steady they rushed her to ICU, my poor hubby sat there in tears.

He looked at me and said “see this is why we must live our lives to the fullest you just never know when your time is up!” I so agree, he now has a new outlook on life, just with me being in the hospital scared him, he is so pitful when it comes to sickness and is so lost, he even took out another insurance policy on us lol. How many policies does one need lol, but I totally understand what he is saying, after they got her out of the room and into the ICU two of the nurses came back to the room to apologize for all the trama and noise, we (my family) looked at them and said, “you owe us no apology for doing your job, I commend the entire staff for all you did for that woman, if it were me or one of my loved ones I’d hope for the same quick thinking and actions and would hope that the family with me would also be just as understanding.) They were so over whelmed with our responses and all they could do was smile hugely and say thank you for understanding, that in my opinion is a given, but as for the lady she was doing a bit better, I asked one of the nurses that had worked with her and she told me she was still recovering in ICU.  

I take my hat off to the entire Beaumont (Royal Oak, Michigan) Hospital for making my time there as pleasent and peaceful and I highly recommend their staff and services.

We've all heard the old saying "you never really miss the water til the well runs dry!" which is such a true statement. During this time of preparation for Easter, I found myself thinking of my mom and the days of old when we were little kids and how my mom would go over and beyond her call of duty to ensure that we all had a wonderful Easter, from the outfits, to the hot pressed hair and bangs she would give all four girls and trim the boys hair, she made sure we had the best she could give. Then she would make sure we had a feast fit for a king and went out of her way to place the colored eggs we dyed the night before in places outside we would not even think of looking but, she'd always give us great clues where to find them.

My mom was the best! As I’m in my kitchen cooking for our Easter dinner I have my grand daughter with me and was thinking how different parents of today are with their kids they miss out on so much, I did the same things with my two daughters as my mom did for us, but the new generation of parents have not a clue what it is to help celebrate with their kids, even though I know the truth about this special day, I still like seeing all the little kiddies all spruced up and looking forward to the egg hunts and eating the ears off the chocolate bunnies lol.

Times have truly changed what I see most is the grandparents taking over ensuring that the babies have the cute little frilly dresses and the patent leather shoes and bows and bonnets, the lace gloves the the cute little purses to hold all their little candies lol. The parents of today are barely dressing their kids and if they do for the most part its in the latest pair of gym shoes and designer jeans and tops! OK so call me old fashion if you must and I also know that this day has nothing to do with the attire of any of us but it was so nice to see the kiddies all dolled up. LOL.  

I miss my mom, but I thank her for all she did for us as kids and keeping me with the wonderful legacy of thoughts as to how a mom and grandmom should be for those they love. Thanks mom! R.I.P

I am just so very proud of her and tears of joy flow as I think on my mom and wishing she was here to see her oldest grand child live out her dreams.