I’m not trying to brag about my weight.  I’m just happy to finally be losing some.

Back in 1006, I was put on anti-depressants.  That started my weight gain.  It was awful but it got worse last year.  My doctor changed my meds. and I gained 20 pounds in one month.  I was devastated.  I had gotten up to 220 pounds.  I was more depressed than ever.  I told the doctor that I wasn’t taking those pills any more and he had better give me something that won’t make me gain anymore weight.  He did change my meds. and he also gave me some diet pills to take.  Within two months I had lost 15 pounds.  When I was done taking the pills I tried for a month to lose on my own.  It didn’t work, but I hadn’t gained any weight back.  In January I asked the doctor if I could have just one more month on the diet pills.  I didn’t take them every day, but I did take them.  I have been out of diet pills for a month and I am still losing weight.  I’m down to 187.  I feel so much better.  This morning I grabbed a pair of jeans out of my dresser and put them on.  They were a little tight but not bad.  I asked my husband to tell me what size the jeans were because I couldn’t read the tag.  He said they were a size 12.

I’m not trying to put anyone down about their weight.  I am just so glad that, after trying for so long, I am finally getting down.  I still have about 50 or so more pounds to lose but so far it’s a start.  I’m not going to take anymore prescribed weight loss meds, I am praying that I will continue to lose on my own.

My cousins Grandson had surgery last week on his intestines.  This is not his first and I think he will need more.  He is about 6 yrs old.  Last night on FB my cousin said he wasn’t doing good.  Please pray for little Tristin and his family.
Thank you

I’ve been packing all morning.  It has to be done and since I’m the only one here, it’s my job.

My mom was a wonderful woman and the only thing I got of hers when she died is the musical figurines that I had given her throughout the years.  I treasure those figurines.

Mom died 18 years ago from a brain tumor.  It just hit her and from the time it was diagnosed to the time she left was only 5 days.  I held her hand when they turned off life support.  I didn’t want to let her go.

She was a very brave person.  When I was in 11th grade she was diagnosed with breast cancer.  She took it like a trooper.  She always said that God was watching out for her.  I just wish I was as brave as her.

I have 2 sisters and 2 brothers.  They got first dibs on my mom’s things.  I didn’t mind, though, because I had my memories of my mom.

I just had to get this out.  Why? I don’t know.  I sit here crying as I’m typing this.  I know she is in a better place but I still miss her.  I find myself doing things the way she used to do them, and I smile every time.

I’m packing up those figurines and  putting extremely fragile on each box.  It brings back so many memories, some good some not so good.  But they are my memories, none the less.

The day of Mom’s funeral, I was snubbed by family and friends.  I felt like an outsider at my own mom’s burial.  I haven’t been to the grave site since.  I just hope my mom realized how much I Loved her before she took her last breath.  She will always be in my heart.

Hi all.  Hope everyone’s New Year is starting off great.

Last year my hubby got some bad news.  His company was shutting down operations here in the south.  He was losing his job.  He didn’t want to leave the company so he had one of two places to go.  Pennsylvania or Texas.  He chose Texas.  The money was better there and the weather wasn’t going to be a problem for my arthritis.

Hubby left the last day of Dec. and he is trying to find us a place to live.  That left me with the chore of trying to pack up our place here.  Not a lot of fun.  I am having a hard time finding boxes.  Wonderful Wal Mart won’t give out their empty boxes anymore and Food lion isn’t getting enough boxes in for me to get.  I’m supposed to call back tomorrow to Food Lion to see if they have saved enough for me.

I did buy some Banker’s Boxes and a few plastic totes but I don’t want to spend too much money if I can get free boxes.  Today I have to try to find a couple other stores that will give me some boxes.

We will be moving to the Longview area of Texas as that is where hubby’s new job is.  I’m just hoping that everything goes okay and the move goes smoothly.

Have a great day.

My cousin’s son and his wife are pregnant.  Due to lose of amniotic fluid, the baby has to be born at 26 weeks.  I would greatly appreciate prayers that the baby is born safely and healthy.

I just watched the movie ‘Fireproof’ for about the hundredth time.  It is such a good movie, but there is one part in the movie that makes me cry every time I see it.
In the beginning of the movie there is a car crash and one of the cars is on a train track. There is a train coming and the fire fighters try to move the car by picking it up. There is a big crowd around and you see an army man walking toward the car, then you see more men from the crowd step forward to help the firefighters move the car.
I cry every time at the willingness of the bystanders to risk their lives to save someone else.
I get that same feeling from the friends I have here on Fab40. You are always there with a word of encouragement, a smiley, or just love.
I never had many friends, but the ones I’ve made on this site are the best friends I could have. I never feel put down for the way I feel, in fact, I get encouragement that it’s okay to feel that way.
We may go through fire, but, we can know that there is always someone there to help us through that fire.