“Grace was in all her steps, heaven in her eye, In every gesture dignity and love.” -Paradise Lost , Milton -

This is the first morning Ive been completely alone. Since you’ve gone my dear grandma. And I find my self thinking of you in great detail. Especially since the snow is falling so hard, and I know you disliked it so much. Lol On a day like today I would have called you and asked if you were making chicken soup or fideo ( oh my gosh how i miss that) When I sleep I hear your voice calling to me and I know that your happy. If theres a god in heaven your are happy. I talk to every day. Do your hear me? I dont want to make you feel guilty but you left the biggest hole in me. Im not the same.  You were... are so amazing in my eyes that I just hope that I will be the woman you wanted me to be. I love you grandma, I will write more again soon. Maybe here maybe just in my heart. Catch lots of fish.