I am now almost into a month since my foot/ankle and for the most part I was doing well. Here lately I’m having some serious pain due to the healing process I suppose, and it don’t feel good. My mental health is declining a bit because I feel defeated at the moment. Now that I’m relying on my right leg to hold me this knee is starting to hurt and I just had knee surgery on it this past April. My sciatic nerve is starting to bother me again whereas it was doing ok, so I’m just a mess right now and I’m not liking this ne bit. I’m in constant pain all the time from head to toe. I have some very serious pain meds, and I do take them, but here lately I’m finding that my body is starting o crave them if I don’t take them and I’m not one to be getting hooked on pain killers. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard plate. I try not to let my family see me cry due to my depression and I refuse to allow the doctor prescribe me any anti-depressants. I just want to get past this an feel better, but it seems as soon as I think I’m over the hump, ere comes something else to set me back. I tell my husband all the time to just dig the hole so I can fall in it now. If the rest of my life have to be with all this pain and discomfort, let me go now. This is how I truly feel. It’s not a pity party I’m just tired of hurting and being unable to do for me as I once could. My arthritis is so severe it is literally taking over my entire body from head to toe. Jesus!
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